Thursday, September 20, 2007

Menatap lembayung di langit Bali

dan kusadari betapa berharga kenanganmu
Di kala jiwaku tak terbatas
bebas berandai memulang waktu

Hingga masih bisa kuraih dirimu sosok yang mengisi kehampaan kalbuku Bilakah diriku berucap maaf
masa yang tlah kuingkari dan meninggalkanmu
oh cinta

Teman yang terhanyut arus waktu
mekar mendewasa
masih kusimpan suara tawa kita kembalilah sahabat lawasku semarakkan keheningan lubuk

Hingga masih bisa kurangkul kalian
sosok yang mengaliri cawan hidupku
Bilakah kita menangis bersama
tegar melawan tempaan semangatmu itu
oh jingga

Hingga masih bisa kujangkau cahaya
senyum yang menyalakan hasrat diriku
Bilakah kuhentikan pasir waktu
tak terbangun dari khayal keajaiban ini
oh mimpi

Andai ada satu cara
tuk kembali menatap agung surya-Mu
Lembayung Bali


Lagu ini dinyanyikan ama Saras Dewi judulnya Lembayung Bali... Aku suka karena lagu ini bener bener terasa 'art' nya... walaupun Aku bukan anak seni...hihi... Justru itu, kerenkan...?! Trus lagu ini juga sering nemenin aku di sela-sela kesendirianku.. kaya di film korea aja. fuu fuu...

Sunday, September 16, 2007

Who is my enemy.....??

Last night I was dreamed. I fought someone that I don't know who he is. When I woke up, I just though that I fought somebody that I want to beat him off. Why? For what? For my life of course. To make gone all of my unconfortable feeling.
In the real fact, I found that the unconfortable feeling is come from inside of my soul. Because I feel that each body have their bad and good side. The bad side is the unconfortable feeling I mean. So if I want to beat this, I have to beat my self first. Hmmm.... like a movie ya... But that is the truth hon.

One day, I was walking on the road to go to my older big bro. Then I saw a man looking for a few of help from people around him. In a slice time, I though that he just need to be help because of his critical condition, I mean his financial. Just look like another people like him in the world.
In other time than, I saw him again. Still looking for and asking for a little of coin that people want to give him. But at the moment, I though that he was not only do that to keep survive and expand his life. But it is more than like that. For me, it likes he try to tell the world "I'll keep my dreams in my hand". Too ironic. But that is what my little heart tell me about.
And now, I just have the same feeling like that pure guy. I feel that I life in this earth not only to keep my soul on my body, or look after much money to spend in to many things, or survive and try to defeated the 'pure' moment. But it more than like fight with the sky. I have to beat my way. I have to kicked my normal life. To life like a grass in the middle of water fall. for what? Of course to show my self to the world. Try to make' em look in to my self. And say to their selves that I, Me, Life in this world. Just like the old guy on the road.

Sunday, September 09, 2007

Born to pain....

Nobody knows who I am. None of people want to know me. This world know me nothing....

That the first word I want to say. To everybody, somebody, anybody in everywhere, somewhere or anywhere. Then, the biggest passion of word that I want to tell this earth is, "I HATE THIS MOMENT, TODAY, TONIGHT".

Did Earth knows how I passed my life? knock out all problem and kicked by any obstacles? Who understand? Who care? I always say to the core of myself to be patient and professional, but it just an amazing sucks. No change. Beside, too mani chance that I Lost. I HATE

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